Alone

They say home is where the heart is and I've never been more alone
So tell me where to go when I've lost my heart somewhere along the road
Let's get drunk off each other and ignore these cracks
You and I together till the morning do us part

I've got leaches on my heart
Starving for attention
We're broken beyond the cracks

Give me something to believe in
I get high off my self pity
I guess at least I find comfort in knowing
Someday this has got to stop (right?)
Friends in high places
With hearts smeared on the ground
We're vicious selfish "lovers"
Only want what isn't found

And I'm stuck in desperation
Alone in self dementia
I'm not who I was at the start

I see clouds of you slipping from my mouth
Kissing nicotine off each other while the lights are out
Text a romance novel and the poet is alive
Broken lovers both together, alone in doubt

If god has a plan for me then he can bring it
I'm ready for the pearly gates or to burn in flames
Cause I'm not just a soul drifting without a route
I'm a heart beating only on depression and self doubt

I can see the wizard hiding behind the curtains and drapes
I'm ready for my reveal, I'm all of Dorothy's friends
No heart no brain and I'm barely brave
But maybe with another shot (at this) I'll feel ok